One day you'll be back

It was not me. It wasn't for me. That wasn't my Christmas tree. It was a cold August night. The usual at that time of year. The day had passed normally and I happily awaited his call. The windows still stained from the previous day's storm told the story of the days of an atypical summer, a summer that glimpsed the miracle of new love, of the memory of afternoons in the street, of children shouting on the sidewalk for my brother to come down, of my mother shouting for me to finish my homework. Blessed summer, colored crystals, spring of illusion at forty degrees? The afternoons were long until I heard your voice. In that instant the scene froze, and my daily life began to make sense. Your eyes spoke to me through your voice and I could feel how much your fifteen teenage years loved me.All this time I have looked through my memories at the picture of that last afternoon when I saw you. You pretended to know that you were not leaving, that you would come back to say goodbye. You used to tell me: "Christmas is not for me, but when you look at the tree you will have a present from me, every year it will be there, you don't know why or how, but you will always find it". The wet streets talk to me about you whispering your name and reviving my memories and I still hope that one day you will slip through the clouds and come back to look for me, enter through my window and take me to that world that only you know. You swore to me eternal love but that day you left this little girl at the mercy of the passing of time, which is the only one that does not forgive, implacable in its presence, untamed and impossible to tame. If one day I were to tell you that in that tree I found your gift, I would lie, I would cry so bitterly that its lights would go out when I saw my disconsolate tears, useless hopes banished to the oblivion of illusion. That is the true tragedy of childhood, to discover that life is promised to us in crayons that gradually lose their intensity and when we want to realize we have grown too much, and the crayons are already pens, and the pens are markers that one day no longer mark, nor paint, nor write love letters. I miss you. You told me you loved me; that I was your child, the only one, that you would always be with me. But that fateful afternoon you left. And my world stopped, and you knew it. You knew it was our last time. The last time for both of us. The unconditional. The one that tears can't bend. No turning back for the memory of your first smile, no comfort for my poor heart. But I remember you every day, every night, from my little world, from my humble life, I love you and, believe it or not, I wait for you, because I know that one day you'll be back.

Your lie in April

 

 Sweet Kaori:

It's been fifteen years since you left and I still see how you come running back smiling.

I always carry with me the phrases you used to tell me about Charlie Brown, but there's 

 one that I don't agree with: "the secret of life is just to get used to it" and I can't get used to

 your absence and I don't think I ever will.

  It's winter but on your grave there are always flowers, as cheerful as you were.

 I 've tried to go on living and your memory pushes me to want to be happy.

                         When I'm sad I do as you told me: I rest my head on my arms and it's magic: 

I smile again, I see you holding my hands.

You gave me so much that sometimes I think I didn't do enough, you illuminated the darkest 

 path that was my life. 

You know I've got a little girl called Kaori, her mother left us when she was a baby, she

 told me she couldn't compete with your memory.

 And it's true, I'll never be able to  love anyone like you and my daughter reminds me every

moment you were in my life. She is cheerful, determined, talented, funny: she is just like you.

I didn't come to understand the importance of the things you said to me until I lost you.

                                          

                                    "You know, I'm not always going

                                       to be around to help you".

 Kaori, you made me believe that I could handle anything, and that's the greatest gift

I've ever been given. 

I got to play the piano again, I got to forgive my mother, and I'm still seeing Tsubaki and 

Watari. All your unconditional love made me forgive myself too.

True love, Kaori, doesn't knock at the door, it carries keys, and you had the keys to my heart.

                            When we meet again we'll jump off that bridge, and we'll laugh, and 

fireflies will light us up.

You're the love of all my lives because I know that in the next one I'll find you, but this time

we won't be separated, I promise, there will be no fear, there will be no suffering.

 Kaori, it's only for a while, wait for me, keep smiling while you are still illuminating my 

memory.

Thank you for making me so happy. I will always be by your side.

                                                I love you! I love you!

                                                       I LOVE you!

                                           

                                                   Will it reach you?

                                                      I'm sure it will   

                                                                       

                                                             Kousei <3

Shigatsu wa kimi no uso

Sweet Kaori:

Dear Killua,

                                                                                                                           12/12/2024

          Dear Killua,

   It's been a long time since we last saw each other; time passes slowly for those 

   who love the most.

   I remember when we said goodbye, I wanted to hug you but I just couldn't, if I had done 

   I'd not have been able to separate from you.

   You were my first friend, and I was yours and we lived so many adventures that time 

   stopped for us.

   I'm so sorry for all I made you suffer, I'm really sorry that a soul as pure as yours cried so 

   much for me.

   Now I am aware of the damage I did to the person who loved and cared for me the most.

                 I miss hearing: BAKA!!! just like you used to tell me; I loved to see you angry  

   because of my stupid things. I feel like I'm missing half life if you're not around.

    I know it's late for this, I know I failed you.

    I saw Melody a little while ago and she works for your family now. She told me that they

   don't know where you are but before you disappeared you left Alluka in charge of 

    Leorio and Kurapika.

   Every day of all these years I have thought of you, how happy and brave you made me, 

   and above all, of our friendship, which we swore would never be broken.

   I don't know how to find you or where to send this letter but I do know that you are 

   the best friend anyone could ever have.

          Killu, you carried me so many times... and if I am here it is because you saved my life.

    I remember when you told me that I was the light, but that's not so: the light was 

    always you since the first time I saw you with that skate.

    I'm the luckiest person in the world to have crossed paths with you; every 

    second we spent together was worth it.

    I hope that wherever you are you are happy and that you eat many chocorobots, I don't 

    ask more from life.

 

Thank you, Killua, for so much! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being in my life.

                 Do you remember that song that aunt Mito liked so much?

                                    "We'll meet again

                                     don't know where

                                      don't know when

                                      but I know we'll meet again

                                      some sunny day"

                          

                                       Love you so much, Killua

                                                      Gon <3

           

                  

 

                                  

                                                        

  

  

  

  

  

 

        

          

 

     

       

 

Querido Killua,

         Querido, Killua,

   Hace mucho tiempo desde la última vez que nos vimos; el tiempo pasa despacio para 

   aquellos que más aman.

   Recuerdo cuando nos despedimos, quería abrazarte pero no fui capaz, de haberlo hecho

   no habría podido separarme de ti.

   Fuiste mi primer amigo, y yo el tuyo y vivimos tantas aventuras que el tiempo se paró

   para nosotros.

             Siento todo lo que te hice sufrir, siento que un alma tan pura como la tuya llorara

   tanto por mí.

   Ahora soy consciente del daño que hice a la persona que más me ha querido y cuidado.

  Echo de menos escuchar: BAKA!!! tal como tú me lo decías; adoraba verte enfadado

  por mis estupideces. Siento que me falta media vida si tú no estás.

  Sé que es tarde para esto, sé que te fallé.

              Vi  a Melody hace poco tiempo y ahora trabaja para tu familia. Me dijo que no

  saben dónde estás pero que antes de desaparecer dejaste a Alluka a cargo de Leorio y

  Kurapika.

  Cada día de todos estos años he pensado en ti, en lo feliz y valiente que me hiciste, y

  sobre todo, en nuestra amistad, que juramos que nunca se rompería.

             No sé cómo encontrarte ni dónde enviar esta carta pero sí sé que eres el mejor

 amigo que alguien pueda tener.

 Killu, me cargaste tantas veces... y si estoy aquí es porque me salvaste la vida.

 Recuerdo cuando me dijiste que yo era la luz, pero eso no es así: la luz siempre fuiste tú

 desde la primera vez que te vi con ese patín.

 Soy la persona más afortunada del mundo por haberme cruzado contigo; cada segundo

 que pasamos juntos mereció la pena.

 Espero que allá donde estés seas feliz y que comas muchos chocorobots, no le pido más

 a la vida.

           ¡Gracias, Killua, por tanto! gracias de corazón por haber estado en mi vida.

 ¿Recuerdas aquella canción que le gustaba tanto a la tía Mito?

           "We'll meet again

             don't know where

             don't know when

             but I know we'll meet again

             some sunny day"

                                 Love you so much, Killua

                                               Gon <3 /p>