Your lie in April

 

 Sweet Kaori:

It's been fifteen years since you left and I still see how you come running back smiling.

I always carry with me the phrases you used to tell me about Charlie Brown, but there's 

 one that I don't agree with: "the secret of life is just to get used to it" and I can't get used to

 your absence and I don't think I ever will.

  It's winter but on your grave there are always flowers, as cheerful as you were.

 I 've tried to go on living and your memory pushes me to want to be happy.

                         When I'm sad I do as you told me: I rest my head on my arms and it's magic: 

I smile again, I see you holding my hands.

You gave me so much that sometimes I think I didn't do enough, you illuminated the darkest 

 path that was my life. 

You know I've got a little girl called Kaori, her mother left us when she was a baby, she

 told me she couldn't compete with your memory.

 And it's true, I'll never be able to  love anyone like you and my daughter reminds me every

moment you were in my life. She is cheerful, determined, talented, funny: she is just like you.

I didn't come to understand the importance of the things you said to me until I lost you.

                                          

                                    "You know, I'm not always going

                                       to be around to help you".

 Kaori, you made me believe that I could handle anything, and that's the greatest gift

I've ever been given. 

I got to play the piano again, I got to forgive my mother, and I'm still seeing Tsubaki and 

Watari. All your unconditional love made me forgive myself too.

True love, Kaori, doesn't knock at the door, it carries keys, and you had the keys to my heart.

                            When we meet again we'll jump off that bridge, and we'll laugh, and 

fireflies will light us up.

You're the love of all my lives because I know that in the next one I'll find you, but this time

we won't be separated, I promise, there will be no fear, there will be no suffering.

 Kaori, it's only for a while, wait for me, keep smiling while you are still illuminating my 

memory.

Thank you for making me so happy. I will always be by your side.

                                                I love you! I love you!

                                                       I LOVE you!

                                           

                                                   Will it reach you?

                                                      I'm sure it will   

                                                                       

                                                             Kousei <3